Making the Decision

Seen as this blog is devoted to my mission I find it only fitting that I share the story of how I came to making the decision of serving a mission!
After being back in Helena for about 7 months I started to feel like I was just sitting here taking up space and not really doing much with my life. I started thinking of all the different things I could do,for example; move back to Cedar City and going back to work at Head Start, Going back to school and getting a degree in Social work, or even just moving to some random place, doing so random job. Yet none of these things seemed to be right. After much pondering and prayer I decided to seek counsel from the Bishop. I met with him on Feb.1st, and in that meeting he asked me if I had ever thought about going on a mission. I quickly replied "yes but it's not for me and besides I'm to old to go on a mission now"! After much talk he encouraged me to pray about it and told me that we would meet again soon. In my mind I was thinking yeah yeah, I'll pray about but I will get the same answer I've received before and end up right back at square one. Well I went home and said a little pray and pretty much said I will do thy will but... I would really like thy will to be... and went onto tell him my will. Over the next week I pondered and prayed about it a lot. By the end of the first week I had come to the decision that either decision was right, but I knew that one had to be better then the other. So I kept praying and pondering. I even call a few friends and family members looking for advice. Hoping that someone would tell me what I wanted to hear. I was fighting the feeling in a huge way! I had a hard time giving up my will and truly letting his will be done, Until I was praying on the Morning of Feb 15Th, exactly 2 weeks from my first talk with my Bishop, when I realized that his will had become my will and that I truly did have a desire to serve a mission. I went the Bishop that day and we start the paper work right away. I had my papers done and in a month! I have no doubt that the Lord has work for me to do and that he needs me to go NOW! There was not time for me to sit around and debate if I should go or not.